My Story

Growing up all I wanted was to be anywhere but home. Especially my teenage years. I spent as much time as I possibly could at my best friends house as it was safe, loving and fun. Both my parents had their own unresolved trauma of abuse, betrayal and loss leaving mum suffering with numerous mental health issues and dad an abusive alcoholic. They had a loveless marriage creating a home that was volatile and unpredictable.

From the age of 8 I suffered with debilitating migraines and later developed depression and anxiety. I worried about everything. I struggled maintaining friendships, was a workaholic, perfectionist, and a people pleaser. I felt like I was a terrible mother, wife, and friend. I always felt resentful and angry. I was constantly over-giving and trying to be everything to everyone and felt like I was receiving very little in return. I had no idea why I behaved and felt the way I did. I was exhausted. 

I’d sought help from many different healing modalities with limited success. I found Theta Healing to be a simple, easy and highly effective method that enabled me to identify and release pivotal traumatic moments from my past (without reliving them), heal them, and move forward with empowering beliefs, constructive behaviours and positive emotions.

My sessions uncovered a deep abandonment wound that had been created when I was a toddler. I’d been left in a ‘home’ with complete strangers when mum went to hospital while my siblings stayed with trusted family friends. I was told by my parents that because I was a whinger, they just couldn’t leave me with people they knew!

I was shown how this experience turned my life upside down. My home became a place where I felt unsafe and unwanted. I felt like I didn’t belong, I was misunderstood, abandoned, unimportant, powerless, and not good enough. I believed my parents didn’t love me and were ashamed of me, creating core beliefs that I’m difficult, a burden, unworthy, unlovable, it’s all my fault, and that nobody wants me. I felt I couldn’t trust anyone.

These core beliefs have run my life without me even realising it. I could see how all my actions were driven solely by the fear of being abandoned again. I was constantly checking my behaviour as well as monitoring every change in mood, facial expression and behaviour of my parents, causing me to be highly anxious. From being a parent pleaser I became a people pleaser. I was constantly over analysing conversations, always on edge worrying that someone was mad at me or I was doing something wrong. I became a ‘good girl’ and kept my mouth shut. I felt I had to be perfect so I hid the parts of me that I thought were bad, flawed or unacceptable.

I realised why my whole life I tip toed around others, walked on eggshells, kept the peace and fixed everyone. Why I was highly sensitive to criticism and gave myself a hard time if I thought I said or did something wrong and blamed myself if things didn’t work out - all because I was in constant fear that I would be abandoned again. And I saw how the constant pressure of hiding who I really was and dancing to everyone else’s tune to gain their approval, be acknowledged, and feel loved and accepted resulted in migraines, anxiety and depression..

Throughout my healings I came to understand my abandonment wound and how deeply this event affected and impacted every aspect of my life. I realised why I behaved the way I did and that as an adult I was still reacting to the world as that helpless young child. I saw that the actions I took as a youngster to survive and protect myself, became my hardwired automatic patterns of behaviour that I’d unconsciously repeated over and over again throughout my life, keeping me stuck in survival mode.

The greatest gifts my healing journey have given me is self-love, self-acceptance and a willingness to grow. When you love and accept who you are, you can live your life fearlessly.

Understanding why I behaved the way I did was so empowering. This self awareness allowed me to look at my behavioural patterns and triggers and realise that life doesn’t happen to me, but I play a role in everything I experience. This understanding gave me the confidence to make different choices, creating new, better and more positive outcomes.

Using different healing techniques, my limiting core beliefs as well as my trapped emotions that had been created from my time in the home were released from that wounded little girl. I was then able to heal and accept new feelings of self love, self acceptance, happiness etc, and more empowering beliefs  that I am enough, I am lovable, I am safe to be me etc.

Releasing the hurt, pain and suffering that had ruled my life were game changers. I was able to rewire my nervous system to safety after decades of living in survival mode. Equipped with positive beliefs, emotions, and behaviours, I can now trust myself to know what’s right for me and I have embraced, rather than feared, my life. I have accepted and celebrated those parts of me that I had always hidden, disliked or felt ashamed of.

I love who I see in the mirror - a happier, calmer and confident me. I’ve developed new healthy friendships and rekindled some old ones. I laugh more often and have fun. I’ve realised that not everything’s about me, so I don’t take things so seriously or personally. I can relax and enjoy the ups and downs of life, rather than worry and think it’s my fault, or be perfect and fix everything. I’ve also learnt to forgive myself for those times when I acted or said things out of anger, fear or frustration, realising I was doing the best I could.

Understanding why I spent my life pleasing others, I can now focus on my needs, emotions and desires, which has enabled me to build a love that doesn’t require self sacrifice, validation or conditions. My health’s improved significantly. I no longer feel anxious about what might happen, and with positive self talk and affirmations, my depression has shifted. My stress levels have decreased as I’m no longer putting pressure on myself to be perfect or please others, so my migraines have diminished.

There were many layers of my wounding that were cleared in my healing sessions; one was to view the experience through my parent’s eyes. Understanding their trauma rendered them unable to support, encourage or ‘see’ me for who I was, especially mum, enabled me to see that they made the best choice they could at the time. Realising that they believed the people in the home would look after me and care for me while they couldn’t, enabled me to forgive them. This has also allowed me to release the generational beliefs and trauma associated with the mother wound which affected my self-esteem and self worth, so I can appreciate and love who I am as a mother, wife, female and friend.

Self-love and self-acceptance are the keys to healing and moving forward as they nourish and support every aspect of my life. I believe I am enough and that all parts of me are lovable and that I am worthy of being loved and loving others. And…the world won’t end if I make a mistake!!!! This awakening has buoyed my confidence to use my voice, set boundaries and make myself a priority without the fear of being abandoned. I’m no longer a victim of my past, but a creator of my future.

I would love to help you release the pain of your past, so you too can create a magical future. I have completed many Theta healing courses and continue to do so, as there is always more to learn, understand, and uncover. Allow me to assist and support you in releasing your blocks and changing your life, so you can heal, find true happiness, love who you are and create the life that you truly deserve.

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ThetaHealing Basic DNA
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ThetaHealing Dig Deeper
ThetaHealing Manifesting and Abundance
ThetaHealing You and Your Significant Other
ThetaHealing You and the Creator
ThetaHealing You and Your Inner Circle 
ThetaHealing You and the Earth
ThetaHealing Intuitive Anatomy 
ThetaHealing World Relations
ThetaHealing Game of Life

ThetaHealing Animal Seminar

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